Britney Spears has taken to social media to talk about how she’s feeling for the first time since the news that she’s separating for good, as her husband of 14 months, Sam Asghari, filed for divorce on Wednesday.

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In her first post since the split, (the 41-year-old star’s third divorce), Spears dances in a revealing look and makes a touching confession in the caption.

Check out this Instagram post.

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“As everyone knows Hesam and I are no longer together… 6 years is a long time to be with someone so I’m a bit shocked but… I’m not here to explain why because it’s honestly none of anyone’s business!!! But, I honestly couldn’t take the pain anymore!!! Somehow telepathically I get so many heart melting messages from friends and thank you!!! I’ve been playing it hard for far too long and my Instagram may look perfect but it’s far from the truth and I think we all know that!!! I would love to show my emotions and my tears for how I really feel but for some reason I always had to hide my weaknesses!!! If I wasn’t my daddy’s strong soldier I’d be sent far away to places to be fixed by doctors!!! But that’s when I needed family the most!!! You are supposed to be loved unconditionally… not conditional!!!! So I will be as strong as I can and do my best!!! And I’m actually doing really well!!! Anyway have a nice day and don’t forget to smile!!!” He wrote.