Emilia Clarke admitted she was “more afraid of being fired than death” when she was hospitalized for a brain hemorrhage, as she graced the cover of the December-January issue of Harper’s Bazaar.

The 37-year-old star of “Game of Thrones” will receive the actress award at the magazine’s Woman of the Year Awards on November 7, following in Anya Taylor-Joy’s footsteps. In an interview with the publication, the actress revealed how she felt when she was diagnosed with an aneurysm.

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I was not afraid of death. I was afraid they would fire me! I decided: ”This is not something that will define me.” I never gave in to any feelings of “Why me?”. This sucks”. The whole thing made me feel very embarrassed. Like I was devastated. As if the producers would think of me as an unreliable person… ».

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And the actress continued: “If I hadn’t had a brain hemorrhage, I might have turned into a fool who thought living in Hollywood was the best thing. I’m much more aware of what’s happening, in the moment it’s happening. I don’t worry about failure. If something goes wrong, I always believe you can fix it. It hurts, it’s scary, but then you can do anything».

The actress starred in one film this year, ‘The Pod Generation’, a sci-fi romantic comedy, which she also produced, starring alongside Chiwetel Ejiofor.