Tasos Xiarchos revealed that he is HIV positive and talked about how he experiences it

The 32-year-old choreographer Tasos Xiarchoswho in recent years has seen his name playing a lot in the public eye and not always positively spoke on Dafni Karavokyris’ podcast, Sex Pocast and was more revealing than ever.

“I had sex for the first time when I was 17, but I think the first time I had it was when I was 9, and the first time I had sex was when I was 6. He was a 17 year old man. When an elder does something to you and you are a child you think that it is right and must be done. But surely, inside we know what is bad and should not be done. I felt fear whenever I realized that this is not right» he began his shocking description and continued:

“I was in my neighborhood playing and a kid came up to me, built a little house, put me inside and whatever happened happened. Because I had a difficult childhood, this was erased from my memory. At about 20 it came back to me and I remembered this whole thing. For some reason I had to experience this thing. At home I experienced much worse situations whenever this didn’t seem like something to me».

While he clarified that at least in the early years he was bisexual: “I liked men, but I’ve been with women too. From a young age I felt attracted to the man. There was nowhere for me to go back then to talk about my sexuality. At 9 I had some contact with but little boys and now those boys may be married with children. I will call them oppressed people».

And continuing, he referred to what he himself believes about his father’s generation:

“I believe my father’s generation had quite a few homosexuals. When these people are forced to have a family and children or have sex with a woman because they have to, when the years pass and they see that they are missing what they really want, violence will come out of them. That’s why in our day and age we see many married men slip away after a while and become not just gay but passionately gay. My father may be a repressed homosexual but I don’t wish it. It’s a shame not to live what you want to live»

The conversation then turned to his sex life and personal preferences:

“Sex entered my life very recently, I am 32 years old. Until the corona virus, I did it once or twice a year and that was planned, not out of love. I had sex with dancing. I wanted this and had forgotten Tasos’ life. I experienced sex negatively. I did it very strongly, very abruptly. I am ashamed of moments. Now I’m going to start enjoying it».

While immediately after Tasos Xiarchos spoke openly about his addictions, but also for the first time about his HIV diagnosis. “First we need to explain what HIV positive is. HIV is HIV positive, which takes many years to activate. Two years ago, this month I had a strange dream and woke up and said “I have AIDS”. It had a lot of thorns, a lot of blood. I’ve had this dream since I was a baby, an old woman looking at me like I’m dying. Maybe I had the fear inside me, because I had sex without protection, because I did drugs, I was lost“, he revealed and then added:

“The system is blind. If you get it and don’t have someone to talk to, you can get stuck and it can take months to get treatment and you shouldn’t. It’s one pill a day for the rest of your life».

To what extent has his diagnosis affected his sex life? He says:

“In this gay space and Grindr if the other guy doesn’t want to put a condom on, wants to go without and knows it might come up in his life, I can’t let every guy know what I have knowing it doesn’t even stick. I’ve had them want us to have sex so they can hook up and get the allowance. It’s about 700 euros, I’ll get it this year. I felt remorse for taking money that was due to my carelessness and not from my organization. Now I will take it because I was so psychologically devastated when I found out that I lost jobs etc. It was heavy, brutal for a person who had seen this before with the movies»

Finally, Tasos Xiarchos referred to the suicide attempt he had made before learning about his diagnosis and explained: “When I made the attempt it was very bad for that period but it was also very good because for me redemption came. I set an example, I did what I did to myself, I went to get well and then AIDS broke out and I fell again. Within a year I had an attempt, cancel on the internet, AIDS and managed to be alive».