Chaos Capital: How Much Can You Take? – Many challenge it, few love it

If you’ve moved, you know this firsthand. You want to move from point A to point B, you, along with all your belongings. Even if it’s a development, even if it’s for the good, some bad words will escape you – even from within – in the process.

Maybe because you had to rush for various reasons to get out of point A and collecting your items in a rushed time period put pressure on you. Physically but also mentally. Maybe because you didn’t want or weren’t emotionally ready for something like that and in the middle of the case everything started to seem like a mountain to you.

They were and they seemed

In any case, when everything was packed up and moved and hopefully arrived at point B, then everything was and looked like a mountain indeed. A mountain of disorder, like another Myth of Ariadne without end and beginning. And then you understood. The previous step was simply the warm-up. Now I want you, to see where the hell you start.

And when you start, not to prevent you that is, then see. Because at least now they’re all neatly boxed and put away. Once they start to unfold in the space, that’s when it will be come and see. Or don’t come see it.

After all, it is not a rare phenomenon, once you move – I repeat, even if it was for good -, to take a break before starting to arrange the new space. As much as you can’t wait to get him ready, make your new beginning here. And the reason is this: chaos. The chaos you face upon entering the space. One when you entered, one when the pressure in your head rose and one when you want to slam the door behind you and leave.

You might think you’d like a magic wand too. Wave it in the air and everything magically falls into place. Sleep in chaos at night and wake up in the morning in complete order and calm. Of course, you will have lost the route. And I don’t recommend it. Neither did Orson Scott Card. It is in the disruption of chaos that we discover what we are, if we are anything, he told us. Got it, right? It’s one of those times when it’s not the destination that matters but the journey.

The elephant and the poppy

Let’s not hide like the elephant behind the poppy, the chaos many caused but no one loves. Do you want to feel like your anchor has washed away? Are you traveling without a compass? As if you lost the ground under your feet? Uncertainty, in a word.

The familiar feeling that usually triggers our body to go into a safe mode, often to a complete shutdown. Because uncertainty makes us anxious and anxiety makes us want to hide. Anywhere, it is enough to avoid the unpleasant situation before us. At worst we give up completely, at best we procrastinate until we can regain control.

Chaos, the misunderstood

We humans tend to feel good when there is stability and initially resist any change. Food for thought here. There are changes that are for our good, immediately we react to all of them, even to them. So with chaos. It is in order that we feel safe and at peace, but isn’t chaos, like change, always destructive? After all, chaos gives birth to order, according to Friedrich Nietzsche, how could we not take him into account? Chaotic situations are not all created equal. However, they have in common the sense of terror or even crushing that they leave us with.

First day at university and you’ll be staying at the hostel. Yes, with a roommate you neither know nor have seen before. You feel like you won’t have your own space and you feel lost because you don’t know how your new everyday life will be from tonight.

After years of working with yourself, you slowly but surely feel the results and that maybe you are slowly getting to know you. You get in touch with your real self, you learn to take care of him, you enjoy the time with him. So, you are afraid to enter this new otherwise shiny relationship, lest in the new condition you lose touch with yourself again. And how will you endure again, and lest you be hurt. And don’t you basically hurt the other person too because you won’t make it, and what’s wrong with you anyway. Chaos.

Or you found the courage and entered the new relationship, which really shines, only your new partner is emotionally unpredictable. It doesn’t give you the confidence you wanted – did you really want it or is it just convenient for you? It’s unclear what he feels and whether that has an expiration date. You don’t know if he’s pulling away or if he’s so attached to you that even when he’s closed, they include you.

Unwanted obstacle

Moving, university, relationship, a new job. A bad turn in your health, which makes you feel helpless and difficult to manage. Or simply your participation in an event that has too many people and you were used to the pandemic and you suddenly feel like you are suffocating. Or simply, a common phenomenon of the times, your days are so overly full that you feel everywhere and nowhere, as if you are scattered among everything, as if you are lost among them.

Chaos. Which in essence, if you think about it, is always present. Sometimes in small ways, sometimes in big ways. It couldn’t be. As the world turns, everything is moving, swirling, dynamic and unpredictable. But what if we wrongly turn away from chaos as if it were an unwanted obstacle?

Or web of life?

If you sit on the rocks and watch the water splash on them, you will definitely notice that it rains every time. In the stillness of a morning when the sunlight slips through the crack, otherwise the dust grains of the atmosphere are illuminated every time, otherwise they move even in complete calm. The clouds in a storm never have the same direction, or even the same shape. Tree leaves never move in exactly the same way, even in identical weather conditions.

Chaos. Just as a child’s happy play causes chaos. Chaos is also caused in your thoughts by a loved one who came – happily otherwise – to interrupt you, while you were trying to concentrate on that serious thing you had to do. Simply asking for a little while to give him the gift of your attention. Even the most fun surprises can bring chaos, since they will cause an upheaval in your schedule.

But really now, what will you remember? The tidy house or the child’s laughter? When you finished homework, or the kiss that interrupted you? The jobs you managed all as planned, or your loved ones hidden behind the sofa with cake and champagne? Would it be more beneficial to learn to exist with chaos, not seeing it as an unwanted obstacle, but as the connective tissue of life?

Time for practice

We can learn to exist in chaos. We start by recognizing when we feel it and why. Then it’s time to decide if we want to practice or if it’s not the right time. Not all our moments are the same, you know that. Sometimes they are perfect for practice, to be able to increase our tolerance for chaos and other times it just doesn’t happen. And that’s okay. No reviews here. It is enough to be able to assess our situation. That is, if our emotional, intellectual and mental batteries have a reserve, or will they need charging for next time.

We deliberately set aside some practice time each day. Any time, any time, as long as it’s everyday. If convenient, we arrange for it to be a fixed same time. If that doesn’t do it for us, we create a note to remind us to practice.

We bring the gaze to the earth. Indeed, or imagined. Wherever there is land, we put whatever makes us feel stable. Then we take a deep breath, we want slow and steady breathing. We notice the chaos that we now feel or that we felt earlier in the day. We turn to it and scan body and mind, detect how they feel. And we try to keep our attention here. Let’s not turn it away, let’s not hide. We remember to feel gratitude for all the good things that happen to us, even when we are in the midst of chaos.

By doing this daily, we will see our tolerance for chaos increase. After a while, we will also spontaneously catch ourselves practicing in unrelated moments when chaos is created around us. And then we will remember Paul Clodel. And if he lived, he would no longer even need to try to convince us that, if order is the pleasure of reason, disorder is the delight of imagination.

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