It’s been a few years since I drink and so many that I don’t have a boyfriend. It doesn’t bother me. It turns out that for the people around I look like an ovni. Or maybe not, I feel threatened by the curious glances. “You never dated?” Asked my 12 -year -old nephew. For it is, throughout his existence, in fact, I have never been to anyone. I didn’t introduce anyone to my family at least.
My desire was to tell him everything, I’m an alcoholic and that I can’t relate lovingly to anyone. That is the truth. I live well alone. I have, of course, my relationships that are not serious. Does this make me a smaller person?
It will be? Besides not having a partner, I have no children. It puts me in a box. I’ve told you here that I believe I was never a mother because of my alcoholism. When I was a good age for it, I was very crazy. I followed the birth of the children of my friends, my brothers, and to me always seemed all very beautiful but distant. Imagine if I had been pregnant with one of the many men I had sex with drunk? It would not have been pleasant.
I often feel a strange person. When I find friends, for example, and I hear the chat of children, schools, the problems a child brings to their lives, I feel a fish out of water. I’ve suffered a lot, I felt diminished, a woman in half. Today I like my condition of solitude. If on the one hand I lost a lot, on the other it is a relief not to have someone to take care of. Read more (03/10/2025 – 12h00)
Source: Folha
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