He had resorted to… drink Jesse Lingard in order to ease the pain from the cracking he was receiving. In an interview he gave, the English midfielder spoke about the mental health problems he faced in the 2019/20 season, while also referring to his mother, who was “struggling” with depression.
In detail what he said:
On how he himself dealt with his problem during the period when he received a lot of abuse:
“I was drinking before I went to bed, I had one last night drink, I look back now and think what did I do? But I needed something to try to ease the pain. I was trying to forget it was happening. But he made it ten times worse.
You take this much offense and I was already quite affected and at the same time I had to play well. I’m already going through things you don’t know about. I felt like the world was on my shoulders.”
On the depression his mother faced at that time and the responsibilities he had:
“The depression was so bad she couldn’t really cope and had to go away and get help. But leaving me with my little sister who was 11 at the time and my little brother who was 15, for me, I was still going through my own stuff.
So I wasn’t really the big brother they wanted at the time. They are always having fun, smiling, while Hesse was going through my stuff, so I was on autopilot. I just wasn’t there, mentally I wasn’t there. I was on the field but I didn’t want to be on the field, I didn’t want to play. I didn’t want to stop football, I would never have given it up, but I needed a break.”
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