Billy Joel (Billy Joel) He revealed that he made two suicide attempts and went through a deep depression in the early years of his career because of a stormy and guilty love affair.

His personal confession is included in the documentary ‘Billy Joel: And So It Goes’which premiered on June 4 at the Traibeka Festival and will be broadcast by HBO. The 76 -year -old artist was absent from the event due to health problems.

In the documentary, Joel returns to one of the darkest chapters of his life. In the early 1970s, he maintained a hidden relationship with his close friend’s wife and then associate at Attila band John Smol. When the relationship was revealed, the consequences were devastating: the dissolution of the band, the end of his friendship with Smol and his gradual sinking to depression, when the woman abandoned him.

“I felt that I had destroyed a family. I had nowhere to stay, I was sleeping in cleaning. I was in absolute mental collapse »confessed. His first attempt was made with hypnotic pills, which he gave him – without knowing his intentions – by his sister, Judy Molinari. Joel fell into a coma for days. “When I saw him in the hospital I thought I had killed him”she said in the documentary.

Despite the shock, Joel didn’t stop there. He made a second suicide attempt, this time consuming glossy furniture. Ironically, it was John Smol himself – the man who had hurt – who was rushed to the hospital, saving his life.