THE British nurse Lucy Letbyon trial in Manchester for seven infanticides between 2015-16, denied all the charges against her today and tried to explain the notes in which he seems to incriminate himself.

Seven months after her trial began last October, the 33-year-old defendant today had the opportunity to speak in court for the first time. At the time of the events she was a nurse in the neonatology department at the Countess of Chester Hospital in North West England. But she denies being involved in the seven baby murders and the ten attempts attributed to her.

According to prosecutors, killed the babies by injecting air into their veins or with insulin injections.

Dressed in black, Lucy Letby said she felt “heartbroken” when she was told she was under suspicion in 2016. “I didn’t believe it, I didn’t think I could be accused of anything worse than that”she said, explaining that she had “always wanted to work with children” and was the first member of her family to attend university.

When questioned by her defense attorney, Ben Myers, she insisted that she had never harmed infants: “It was against my capacity as a nurse”he said, emphasizing that “my work was my life” and “her world stopped” when she was kicked out of the neonatology department.

In this context he tried to explain the notes found during the investigation. “I don’t deserve to live. I killed them on purpose because I’m not good enough to take care of them. I’m a horrible, evil person. I’m evil. I did it”, he wrote on these notes. Today he claimed that he wrote them because “he had the impression that he did something bad.” “I thought I was horrible (…) I made mistakes without knowing it,” he said.

The 33-year-old insisted that these texts were not a confession but that she wrote them while she was in a very bad psychological state.